"Have you been drinking tonight?", "No officer, I'm just single."

Hello once again, it’s time for another exciting blog. I’m writing to you from my new laptop, which finally arrived today. There’s something I really wish someone had the answer to. The question is: Are what I want and what I need two completely different things? I’m sure everyone deals with this at one point or another. We all end up falling for at least one person who definitely isn’t good for us. You know, the stereotypical “bad boy” type. But can falling for the wrong person sort of become an addiction? I know many people, including myself. Well, especially myself, who fall for the wrong guy constantly. It becomes a bad habit of sorts and only leaves us sad and burnt in the end. I’ve already told you about the confusing one, who is basically the definition of a “bad boy”. I don’t know why, there’s just something about him that when we talk, I become this utter mess. Yes, other guys have liked me. And yes, they’re great guys, but for some reason I just couldn’t be as attracted to them as I could him. The most likely cause? They’re “too” good. Most people say I’m a drama queen. That is, for the most part, true. But could I be so much of one that I’d let myself be hurt countless times? Maybe I just feel the need to help a person. Some sort of weird karma thing, I don’t know for sure. All that matters is that I one day realize what I want is totally not what I really need. Another question, can being single and lonely cause impaired judgment? Consider this example. Kathy, started talking to this guy, who turned out to be the definition of creepy, stalker, weirdo, crazy all-in-one package wrapped in a freak bow. She didn’t even know this guy and he was asking questions like “Were you popular in high school?” and “Are you big?” and labeling them as “serious questions”! At first he seemed like a normal, non-Charles Manson type. But could that have been because Kathy was single and needed love? Or were these real feelings before he turned into Mr. Hyde? In my life, I’d talked to this guy a few times and he was great, but I still couldn’t feel like I did with the confusing one. Here lately though, I kinda started to like him. And here we are, back to the same question: Is being single the same as being under the influence? Can it really cause impaired judgment and make you do things out of the ordinary? And if so, why do I still feel like this?