Life On The Upswing (For Now)

With only twenty four days until college starts, life has been one big roller coaster these past few days. It all started when my mom and I had to take my little brother to the dentist. For Tanner, trips to the dentist have never been the highlight of his life, and that's putting it lightly. Many a time, he's ended up crying, kicking, screaming, yelling, or a combination of the lot while there. Some sort of fear he has about the dentist and shots. It should have been a normal (Well, my life's version of normal, anyway) day out, but it turned into something much more complicated than that. My mom and I hadn't been on the best of terms this summer, arguing constantly over things like college, jobs, life, and responsibility and she felt the need to chastise me for every little fault I had. Ever since she got married, it's been as if she'd changed, and become someone completely different and I called her on that and there's where the arguing began. We basically yelled at each other the whole way there, each comment more stubborn than the next. But on the way back, we began talking about much deeper issues. It opened up this can of worms that hadn't been talked about and maybe this opening was needed to get out some deep seated feelings. Yes, it hurt to bring it up, but I think this might have been the root of my anger and sadness these past years. It also helped my mom and I reach a conclusion to all this (for now). Things are also looking up for me and my new roommate. Admittedly hesitant at first, I'm finally starting to realize that I may have judged someone too soon, something I've vowed never to do. I think life really has been teaching me a plethora of new beliefs, ideas, and perspectives on life and although difficult at times, I'm thankful for the new lessons. So there you have it, I'm actually learning something and listening to what I'm being told for once, and that is one of the greatest feelings I've ever experienced.


Spencer