Cutting The Invisible String

For the past few months, I've felt like a certain person has been keeping me on this string. Any time HE needed ME, I was there in a heartbeat. I only wish I could say the same for him, but that would be (very bad) lying. And lately, my heart's been telling me one thing and my brain's telling me another. He makes me feel so happy, when he's around that is. But I have to wonder: How do you know when it's time to cut that invisible string? and better yet, how do you go about doing that? I don't want to be the kind of person who always needs someone there, I want to be independent and free to live my life. I mean, yeah, having someone would be great too, just at this point I'm not sure. The only thing I really know about life is that I don't know anything. If I do let go of him, how can I be sure I'm making the right decision in the end? I do think that holding on will lead to at least some hurt, like it has before. It's proven that to make a friendship, relationship, acquaintance or anything work, both parties must put in equal effort. Without it, one person will surely end up burnt. Especially lately, with college approaching, my emotions have been haywire and it's causing a lot of stress and he just seems to add to it, even if he doesn't mean to. In a sort of twisted way, though, I'm bringing it upon myself. And the only way to make it stop would be to sever those ties. I'm just not sure I'm ready. And as I said before, college is in less than three weeks, and after that, everything will change.

Spencer