7 Days...

With only one week until college, now more than ever, I’ve been experiencing a billion thoughts, feelings, and emotions. I’ve already been more stressed than normal and it only seems to heighten by the day. And as I look ahead to what lies before me, I can’t help but look back from time to time, and think about the friendships I’ve developed, the victories I have won, and the mistakes I‘ve made. At times, I wish to right these wrongs, and I’ve already taken steps to repairing them. But it seems that some people just won’t allow me to have closure. Albeit, in my life, I’ve learned to just let things go. At least more than I used to anyway.

Getting prepared for college has really and truly opened up my eyes to what (and who) really matter. I see that my mom is a guiding force for me, and will always love me unconditionally. When I came out, she accepted me for who I was, and without her I’d be lost. My true friends, who’ve supported me through everything, and are always there when I need to rant or just to have a good laugh. My family has also played an important role. Not to say they were there for me because, frankly, they hardly ever were. But they have shown me why I am going to college: To make a better life for myself and to expand my education (and hey, maybe even a little partying along the way). I want to make something of myself, unlike so many of them and accomplish the goals I have for my life.

College is also a time to expand upon my social life. I’m going to be meeting new friends, some of whom will last me a lifetime. This isn’t saying I plan on tossing my high school friends to the side, because that is definitely not the case. It’s also a time to be dating. And all I can say to that is FINALLY. Although I never dated in college, my pseudo relationships have helped me see what I want and need from a person, and what to stay away from.

So maybe everything really does happen for a reason. You live, you learn, you make new friends and be thankful for the old, you cherish the moments you have with the people you love and, like I said, a little partying along the way never hurt anyone.


Spencer