Be My Escape

I finally did it. I actually went to the doctor about my nerves. Ever since a new guy came into my life, my nerves and anxiety have become more crippling than ever before and I had finally had enough. I went to the campus doctor and told him what was going on and he told me that he could prescribe some medication, but first he wanted me to have these blood tests to check for a problem with my thyroid. He thought it may be the reason my hormones were so out of whack and why my symptoms of anxiety were so severe. After this, he told me to go to Pattie A. Clay, the local hospital and have blood drawn. I went and my test results will be back Friday, which is also the day I'm meeting with him again. This week I've still felt more sad than normal. I'm in this rut and I can't seem to get out of it. I feel sad and I don't know why. If I am diagnosed with hyperthyroidism, like the doctor suspects, it would explain a lot of why my emotions are so crazy all the time. I'm on edge about getting the results though, and Friday cannot come soon enough. I've been spending a lot of time with this guy and I really like him. But so many people have warned me about this and I don't want to get hurt. It's a little late for that, though. I'm already attached and overanalyzing everything, as usual. I just want to be happy again. And maybe this is the first step to recovery...