Realizations ( and some still a long way to go!)

Tonight two friends and I watched a movie, called Latter Days. In short, it's a gay movie but it's also a story about true love and about how it can't be broken, no matter what kind of obstacles. While watching this movie, however, I had a realization of my own. I've decided that from now on, I'm not going to settle for anything less than true love. It's time that I start focusing on myself and finding what I really need and deserve with someone. This week was a pretty crazy one as well. A few friends and I went to a haunted house, which completely freaked me out. I've never really been a fan but it was a good time. I feel like lately, though, I've been pushing my friends away for a guy who doesn't even like me like that. I've got to realize who matters the most in my life and who's been there for me through it all, which isn't him. It's time I make a few more changes in my life and this is only the beginning. I'm glad that I'm finally seeing stuff I should have realized a long time ago. I think that it's a sign I'm being more mature. Who knew I had it in me? I definitely didn't. Not to say all is well, though, but is it ever? I've been slacking a bit on my homework and falling behind. That's one thing I do need to work on. But hey, you can't have it all!