Friday the 13th

The day may almost be over, but Friday the 13th sure has been a day that I will never forget as long as I live. However, the reasons for that could not be more different. Last night, the 12th, Mollie, Skylar, and I went to play Bingo in Powell Lobby. And let me tell you, Bingo can get A LOT more heated than you'd think, it was pretty intense. During this, a guy who Mollie and I met at the beginning of the year came up to us. I will be the first to tell you I don't really like this person and he frankly gets on my nerves. He found out we were all going to the midnight premiere of the new Friday the 13th movie and basically invited himself along. Needless to say, this wasn't how I pictured that night playing out. After the Bingo game, we left to go to Wal*Mart and I made some comments about how I wished that he wasn't going with us. Long story short, I was being a major jackass. Thank God for Mollie Kuebler. Without her, I would go crazy because that girl keeps me sane. She called me on how I acted and it put me in my place really quickly.

We got to the movie, which was freaking AMAZING and I had a really fun time being scared with all my friends. We even got front row seats, it was great. After the movie, I came back to my dorm and went to sleep, not at all expecting what was about to happen. The next morning, I skipped my first two classes because I was so tired from the night before.

The day continued like a normal day, I showered, ate lunch with some friends, and then went to Math class. But during that, part of my world completely changed. Halfway through the class, my phone began to ring. I looked down to see that my friend Tiffany was calling me. After I didn't answer, she called and called repeatedly. It was then that I began suspecting something was going on. My other friend Natalie called soon after and I knew I had to find out what they needed me so much for. So, using my iPhone, I got onto Facebook and wrote Natalie a message. She began to inform me that Chayce had OD'd this morning and that he was dead.

The news hit me like a ton of bricks. I was completely floored, so much so that I got up and left class. I may not have known Chayce long, but just hearing the news brought back the few memories we had together. As any time a person dies, you always wonder if there was something more you could have done. I could sit here and name all those things, but that would be making this situation about me, and it isn't. But what it did do was make me see that life really is short and can end at any moment. For some odd reason, I kept thinking about the things I had said that night about that guy. All he wanted to do was go have a fun time like the rest of us and I had to be cruel and say those mean things. That isn't me, at all. Chayce's death has also made me see that I have to be the person I am, 110% of the time. I have to say only the things I mean and let people know exactly how I feel. No focusing on past mistakes or regrets, because you can't change it. But what you can change is the future. As for Chayce, I hope to one day see you again. You were an amazing person and I am so glad that I got to meet you and have you in my life. Now anytime I see anything about Twilight or hear the Veronicas, I'll think of you. You'll always be in my thoughts. I love you.

Spencer