Lessons Learned

For the past few months, I haven't exactly felt motivated to type up a new blog. But recent developments have breathed new life into my creative side and now is the time for another update. So much has happened since November when I last wrote that I would not be able to fit it all into one blog, or even two or three.

To give a short version of it, I have lost a few friends, made some new enemies, met a few more guys, and lost a few of those as well, made new friends, and started a whole new (and MUCH more difficult semester). Even though it's all been really hard to deal with, I feel like I'm coming out of it all a whole new person. I'm more independent than ever and it's just been a wonderful growing experience. I know you're wondering where all this new found positivity is coming from and to tell you the truth, I have no clue. It's just like I've changed over night, but for the better.

Through these experiences, I've learned that people aren't always who you think they are. I've learned that you shouldn't worry about what you can't control, because...well...you can't. I've learned that the little moments can be the most amazing ones in your life. And most importantly, I've learned that your true friends stick by you, no matter how bad you screw things up or how insane you may seem. Because that's what friends do for one another.

I've also decided that I'm done with "like". I've finally realized, after this long, that I do not need a man. I've gone 18 years and a handful of months without one and I can sure as hell live my life without a guy there to hold my hand. I've always dreamed of having this one great love, and I will not settle. There's a big difference between boys and men, and that is SO true when it comes to my life. I want real love and I will find it. But hey, I'm only 18 so I'm definitely not in a rush.

And you know, I know that when things are out of my hands, karma will handle the rest. And that is one of the sweetest lessons of all.