I Should Tell You.

You know, as of late, I've really been contemplating life. I keep wondering why things are the way they are and if there really is a hidden meaning to everything going on. I'm a firm believer that everything happens for a reason, but when you look at my life, is that really the case? My love life is more complicated than ever and at this moment in time, I couldn't even begin to tell you how I feel or who I feel for. I just wish there was a simple way to know for sure what the right choice is, you know? Like, I need some sign to come crashing down from the sky. Preferably a sign with flashing neon lights spelling out the name of my "true love". Yep, that'd be perfectly wonderful! It seems like that'll be my only sure way of knowing who to choose. Problem is, that more than likely won't happen, but if it does I'll be sure to let you know. Right now, I'm sort of just taking life one day at a time, not knowing anything really. I mean, I'm torn between like three different people. They're all great but I'm not sure any of them really like me that way. Only problem is, if they didn't, why do so many things say that they do? College has been great but at the same time it's made my life more complicated than ever...as if I really needed that. Rolling with the punches isn't easy when so many are coming at once. Another problem is that I haven't been able to really talk to any of them about my true feelings. I always tell myself that I will but I never end up doing it and then not feeling good because I didn't. Why is it that I'm rarely quiet, until it comes to matters of the heart? If I could just figure that out, life might be a tad simpler. But for now, I must go. It's been a long day of shopping (AKA retail therapy, and who doesn't love that!?) and I could use some rest. Oh, and just a friendly reminder, don't forget to vote November 4th. This is election is WAY too important to skip out on. So, get out there and make your voice heard! That is all.


Spencer